To those who are suffering with anxiety from unanswered love questions of if or when. With this shiva lingam stone, I pray for you to find your balance, find your peace, feel comforted and calm and able to quiet your mind, and connect with the power of your self love.
This is my Shiva Lingam stone. It’s a big one. They come in all sizes, but like all of my rocks, I like em big. I found that they are useful for calming anxiety associated with love, also known as waiting by the phone syndrome. What would it be called for the Millenials, “waiting for the text back” I guess. Seriously, I have a texting problem, me and like the rest of the world. So my heart was feeling disrupted, as I am just a regular girl too, and my mind can go crazy when I am boy crazy, and then this Shiva Lingam stone appeared at a rock show and I knew it was mine. I got home and read all about it, and the more I read, I was like good lord where do I put it?
Shiva Lingam, or the penis of Lord Shiva, oh my, are stones that are only found in the Narmada River in India. It’s supposed to represent male and female energy, for it’s shape, as it is phallic – male, and also like an egg, yoni – female. Ok, I can get on board with that, I bought some sort of she-male kind of rock, now that’s punk rock. I knew it was for meditation, but how??? I needed to balance my female and male energy for sure, because when I am love sick, my energies are all out of whack. As I read, it works on balancing the chakras, and is especially good for the lower three chakras, your root, your reproductive organs, and your solar plexus, which mine go all crazy when I am love sick. It can help balance the others, the heart, and throat chakras as well.
My solar plexus chakra, also lovingly called Manipura in Sanskrit, is supposed to glow a brilliant sunny yellow. I feel mine in my gut, that’s where my emotions live. Right under my diaphragm. If I am feeling bad, nervous, anxious, my gut hurts, I get so sick inside, are those called butterflies in your stomach? If so I don’t know what kind of evil butterflies those are, and my Manipura turns a putrid shade of yellow. Ewww bad yellow is just bad. I have beautiful chakras, but good ol’ Manipura is my nemesis. I close my eyes, and I can see everything, but brilliant yellow. I had such a problem with seeing yellow that I got a 40kt citrine ring, the sunniest yellow you’ve ever seen, and I pop that on my hand, and say. YELLOW, Stina, YELLOW. Am I the only person who’s gut gets all twisty when I don’t get the text back? I know I’m not. I’m a professional psychic yo, so I know guts, so y’all, it’s yellow. It’s supposed to be yellow. Close your eyes and imagine a big gorgeous sun or a bright yellow daisy, or for me a giant citrine faceted gem, radiating, right in the middle of your body. And breathe. Let the diaphragm, your breathing muscle, move, as your gem gets bigger and brighter, and grow and lift the energy, of the why don’t he text me back chakra.
Anyway, back to Shiva’s Penis, or my Lingam. Sounds so dirty. So this big guy slept in bed with me for a couple of nights. I slept with a rock, how weird is that? Its not as bad as it sounds. I laid with the rock resting on my gut, but it seemed happiest on my heart (that chakra is supposed to be green). And while I focused on my breathing, I prayed for my mind to be silent, my gut to calm the heck down, yellow stina yellow, and for me to basically just chill out. Next thing I knew I woke up with the rock laying next to me, and I was feeling much better. Wow Lord Shiva, what a guy.
So, oh my god, do you want to hear about the guy? The guy that made my gut do a violent cha cha. I’m sure you know him too. You know the story, goes something like this. Sooooo, I met this guy, and he was really cute, and it seemed like he liked me. We hit it off, and it seemed like he was really on my level. We talked and it was like we knew each other before. However I’m a psychic, so its really not fair. I feel like I have known everyone forever. It really sucks for my love life. Anyways, we went out, and it seemed great… maybe you went out with him a lot or a little, but it happens more often than you know, and then as quick as love comes, love can fade, and the texts get shorter, as mine get longer, and then they stopped coming all together, until it seemed as if he was gone. I think the gut started hurting after the first date, waiting for that first after date text. Hello love anxiety, and Manipura has awakened. And all I can think about is love. What is love, I’m not sure, I think its different for everyone, but I know we all want it, and we all want it to stick around and we all want it to come back. Sometimes its bad for us, and then wanting it hurts and Manipura screams. Yellow. I can’t see yellow. I know the pain. I believe we all know the same pain, we just react to different things.
So, the Shiva Lingam. This stone I found in a far corner at the rock show 5 minutes before it closed. Lord Shivas Penis, wow. This rock is really good. Like I said, I rest it on my heart, and on my middle, and just breathe, and I could rest. I let the struggle of trying to keep a faded love bright, and instead grew my internal yellow Manipura gem. And I was able to let go of some weird hope, and find my internal stillness. Ah yes. I am who I am. Thanks Shiva!
If you want to know more. Call me and we can chat. Xoxo Psychic Stina